Words

Do they mean a lot?
Do they hurt you lot?
Where did we go wrong?
We are only humans
Is there anything more?
Why?

And if the world should fall apart hold on to what you know

Dear blog,
This is life. No one asked for it but everyone's got it. It's just weird how sometimes life turns out to be. Sometimes you feel that "You're living it" and the next moment you just spend the 20,000 bucks you saved for an air ticket and steal double that amount from your dad's account and just runaway to nowhere hoping never to come back.
But that's not just how life works. It never tells you what's gonna happen next. Guess that's the mystery of it but sometimes you just feel like had enough of it. These kinda moments come once in a way but when rough times role, they come one after the other. And then you ask yourself back whether this is the life that you wanna be living in. And when the questions don't come right away the life seems to be pretty miserable.
Sometimes when storms come in life and you don't know when the storm's gonna end. Sometimes the only way to hold it on together is by just letting it be, coz sometimes no matter how hard you try, it doesn't get any better. Sometimes the harder you try the worse it gets. Then you feel like the whole world's fallen apart. That's when you just gotta let things be. Guess sometimes it's wise to just let things be.

Young Soul

Even heroes die

Dear mom,

I failed

May be for the right reasons but

I failed

I thought I could move great mountains

Fly beyond the horizon

I thought the time was right

Not yet mom

Not yet

Got more to learn

But the memory will remain

Today, tomorrow and forever

I shall not regret, no I shall not

But I tried mom, I did

Though some say it is stupidity

I tried

Sorry that I hurt you mom

Sorry

An apology cannot replace tears

But it is all I have

Love,

Son.

[ 29.09.2011 @10.49pm]

Burry me in a barren land

Dear mom,

Oh I’m scared

Thousand heads passing me

Without a hello or goodbye

I am all alone in the sea

Not knowing what to do

Now I feel real life

Life as it is

Still I have not given it up

Still I have some faith with me

But I am scared mom

Love,

Son.

[29.09.2011 @6.45am]

Through the misty clouds

Dear mom,

I’m sorry

I did not listen to you

I could not believe your words

But I’m not a fool

Today I may be nothing

But I believe I know something

Now I’m leaving

Where you rubbed my hair

Where I called home

But I did not betray you

I did not lie to you

I did not let you down

Try to remember

The moment I first said Amma

And the moment I said goodbye today

Now I’m going through

The misty clouds of sky

Recalling, reminiscing

I will try

I will fight

I will rise

I might stray

I might cry

I might fail

But what matter the most is

What you’ve learned on the way

Just give me one chance

To prove you what I am

To try for the impossible

Love,

Son.

[28.09.2011 @2.32pm]

Loner

"Things will change, I know

              They always do

Loner's life offers a lot

               But I'm not a coward

Brave from the heart

               A lion with a smile

Many rivers to cross

               Sure not where to start"

 -Irosha de Silva :)

There's a world I see.....

Dear blog,
There's a world I see. All the people running. All the people fighting. All the people crying.
I do not understand why.
There's a world I see. All the people laughing. All the people loving. All the people caring.
I do not understand why.

Where are they running? Why are they fighting? Why are they crying?
I question why.
Why are they laughing? Why are they loving? Why are they caring?
I question why.

I have to run. I have to fight. I have to cry.
They tell me why.
I have to laugh. I have to love. I have to care.
They tell me why.

Problem unsolved. Life unfound. Meaning unknown.
A deer after the mirage, an unseen tomorrow tied in to the mind.

- Irosha de Silva