Words

Do they mean a lot?
Do they hurt you lot?
Where did we go wrong?
We are only humans
Is there anything more?
Why?

And if the world should fall apart hold on to what you know

Dear blog,
This is life. No one asked for it but everyone's got it. It's just weird how sometimes life turns out to be. Sometimes you feel that "You're living it" and the next moment you just spend the 20,000 bucks you saved for an air ticket and steal double that amount from your dad's account and just runaway to nowhere hoping never to come back.
But that's not just how life works. It never tells you what's gonna happen next. Guess that's the mystery of it but sometimes you just feel like had enough of it. These kinda moments come once in a way but when rough times role, they come one after the other. And then you ask yourself back whether this is the life that you wanna be living in. And when the questions don't come right away the life seems to be pretty miserable.
Sometimes when storms come in life and you don't know when the storm's gonna end. Sometimes the only way to hold it on together is by just letting it be, coz sometimes no matter how hard you try, it doesn't get any better. Sometimes the harder you try the worse it gets. Then you feel like the whole world's fallen apart. That's when you just gotta let things be. Guess sometimes it's wise to just let things be.

Young Soul

Even heroes die

Dear mom,

I failed

May be for the right reasons but

I failed

I thought I could move great mountains

Fly beyond the horizon

I thought the time was right

Not yet mom

Not yet

Got more to learn

But the memory will remain

Today, tomorrow and forever

I shall not regret, no I shall not

But I tried mom, I did

Though some say it is stupidity

I tried

Sorry that I hurt you mom

Sorry

An apology cannot replace tears

But it is all I have

Love,

Son.

[ 29.09.2011 @10.49pm]

Burry me in a barren land

Dear mom,

Oh I’m scared

Thousand heads passing me

Without a hello or goodbye

I am all alone in the sea

Not knowing what to do

Now I feel real life

Life as it is

Still I have not given it up

Still I have some faith with me

But I am scared mom

Love,

Son.

[29.09.2011 @6.45am]

Through the misty clouds

Dear mom,

I’m sorry

I did not listen to you

I could not believe your words

But I’m not a fool

Today I may be nothing

But I believe I know something

Now I’m leaving

Where you rubbed my hair

Where I called home

But I did not betray you

I did not lie to you

I did not let you down

Try to remember

The moment I first said Amma

And the moment I said goodbye today

Now I’m going through

The misty clouds of sky

Recalling, reminiscing

I will try

I will fight

I will rise

I might stray

I might cry

I might fail

But what matter the most is

What you’ve learned on the way

Just give me one chance

To prove you what I am

To try for the impossible

Love,

Son.

[28.09.2011 @2.32pm]

Loner

"Things will change, I know

              They always do

Loner's life offers a lot

               But I'm not a coward

Brave from the heart

               A lion with a smile

Many rivers to cross

               Sure not where to start"

 -Irosha de Silva :)

There's a world I see.....

Dear blog,
There's a world I see. All the people running. All the people fighting. All the people crying.
I do not understand why.
There's a world I see. All the people laughing. All the people loving. All the people caring.
I do not understand why.

Where are they running? Why are they fighting? Why are they crying?
I question why.
Why are they laughing? Why are they loving? Why are they caring?
I question why.

I have to run. I have to fight. I have to cry.
They tell me why.
I have to laugh. I have to love. I have to care.
They tell me why.

Problem unsolved. Life unfound. Meaning unknown.
A deer after the mirage, an unseen tomorrow tied in to the mind.

- Irosha de Silva

Learn to be calm and you will always be happy...........

Dear Blog,

Today, I was kidda doing some things that I do not usually do. And when I was recollecting back at the end of the day, I realized what has been wrong. And that main thing is “Calmness”.

I’d like to define calmness as the key to everything. As long as you’re calm, your mind and your body is always ready for anything. Always try to practice calmness in your life and there will be actually a day that you will be always smiling. Smiling outwardly and inwardly. If this is well practiced, there would not be a day known as “Miserable day/Fed up day/Screwed up day or F***ed up day”.

Always remember that getting calmness interrupted is like getting the equilibrium or the balance of your brain out of the line. Then your thinking procedure would not be normal anymore. For then, even you wouldn’t know your actions until it comes back to normal.

So my dear friend, always remember,

“Learn to be calm and you will always be happy”

Cheers :)

-Irosha de Silva

We shall overcome

Dear Blog,

Problems, who doesn’t have them? But how many of the people just let their problems to dominate their lives and live doing nothing?

What made me actually write this was some talk given by my mom. She told the story of her life and at the same time I too recollected the things that I’ve done in life.

It might be true that you are very poor and do not have anything to achieve those dreams that you are dreaming of. As I said before, what most of the people do is just let their problems dominate their lives and say goodbyes to those sweet dreams. What I feel is that, you can almost achieve anything in this life as long as you don’t give up.

Previously I used to think that as I’m not in very much of a “Lucky” family with all the riches and with a background of some “Narrow thinking” people, I wouldn’t be able to go to those dreams that I wish day and night for. But , then somehow I realized that there is absolutely nothing in the world that could be considered as “Impossible”. So, hopefully, I’m in the process of “Overcoming”.

Just sing daily and urge to yourself,

“We shall overcome”

We shall overcome

We shall overcome

We shall overcome…………”

Cheers :)

-Irosha de Silva